Well that was the end of that. One of the oddest, most "off" quarters I've ever had. I was constantly below maximum working capacity, always lethargic, and a little complacent. I say it's senioritis. I'm a bit disturbed by how not disturbed I am at the sheer number of times I've drunk this past week.

Finally got around to play some Brawl at Tyler's, and the 2nd half of the battles were spent picking characters that weren't yet played, getting Kirby to eat them, and taking screencaps. Ganon!Kirby is the most RIDICULOUS thing I've ever seen. Falcon!Kirby's pretty cute too. Anyway, I've found that I like Sonic most (bias? what bias?), and Lucario second. I like 'em speedy blue ones X)

Anyway, it's the end of the quarter! Be kind and indulge me a bit here 8D

✖ You are my...

I can't fucking wait for this quarter to be over. I am so tired of being up to my EYEBALLS with work.

THREE MORE WEEKS

THE END IS IN SIGHT

1) Sexy new Lupin III icons, CHECK IT OUT CHECKCHECK~

2) Saw Pan's Labyrinth last night, FINALLY. It was as;eifjas;eljfsaelijf, which sums up roughly to AMAZING. Everyone should see it. Shit, thinking about it still makes me cry. JET I STILL NEED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT IT

3) Seeing Pan's Labyrinth inspired me to dig up all my New Age Rock, like After Forever, Leaves Eyes, The Gathering, and Within Temptation. Listening to this stuff in a Pan's Labyrinth mood/context is like, sublime.

4) Saw the Cyborg 009 movie, Chou Ginga Densetsu today with ensuing, cuz I now OWN THAT DVD GAHAHAHA. It's a stupid Chinese bootleg though, so it only has traditional Chinese subtitles. It isn't a problem for me, but it's a bother when I watch it with anyone else. =( Anyhow. The movie is OODLES OF DELICIOUS FANSERVICE. TOO MUCH SEXY CANNOT COPE. Ahn and I were having epileptic fits of awesome once about every 10 minutes. 93 AND 42 FOREVERRRR.

5) Folding laundry and cleaning one's room while singing/listening to New Age Rock is the best form of finals week procrastination.

6) My Illustration and Corporate Identity classes this quarter were both client-based. For both classes my work was chosen to be used; event poster for Day With Creative Women, picked out of 3 entries, and Herrmann's Chocolate Lab logo, picked out of 4 entries. It's REALLY GREAT, and I'm EXCITED, and man I'm still coming to grips with it, but it also means... MORE WORK. AAAAAGH. At least I'll most likely be paid. But omg I thought I was done with the logo, and now I have to make modifications, and design more applications, and... gosh I just want a BREAK x___X;;\

7) I need to finish Prince of Persia: The Sands Of Time. I've been at 80% for A WHOLE QUARTER. I MUST FINISH THIS.

8) I WANT TO DO ART FOR EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. I want to make graphic-tee illustrations for Threadless.com, I want to look into doing freelance work for Hot Topic, I want to do more Turtles art, more Cyborg art, I even want to do PAN'S LABYRINTH ART. And then there's COMMISSIONS. No I haven't forgotten about them and as soon as finals are over I will HAUL ASS on that stuff.

9) INTERNSHIP PLACES NEED TO GET BACK TO ME PLZKTHX. I HAVE A LIFE, I HAVE SUMMER PLANS TO BE MAKING, AND CONS TO BE ATTENDING.

I think that's about it. Now, to resume laundry-folding and procrastinating some more.

Mary LaPorte is my Corporate Identity instructor, and she had just sent out an email announcing that our client meeting originally scheduled for tomorrow has been shifted to Monday. That means I no longer have to whip out the 2nd half of my design brief and several logo design thumbnail sketches within the next 3 hours.

Okay, so the fact that she sent out this important piece of information at 11PM the night before is kind of a faux pas. She tends to do this a lot. Not an entirely timely person, Mary. The majority of her students have a very hard time reconciling her character as a person and her position as a college instructor.

But I had gone to my inbox tonight, counting on receiving some kind of email from her, counting on a miracle, and sure enough, there it is. Some days I really love you, Mary.

She needs to stop helping me push my luck. All of this past weekend I did absolutely no work for either of her classes (Corp. ID, Illustration), so if I got fucked up the ass tonight and tomorrow I would've totally deserved it. Mostly though I need to get over this funk I'm in. I think I'm having difficulty with seasonal transition. I think I have an allergy. It's called Spring Lethargy. I kinda get like this around this time every year. It's bad. SNAP OUT OF IT, NAT.

AS;EIFJ SO MUCH SHIT TO DO AAARGH

THURS

- CUT KATZ FABRIC. FOR REALS.
- draw doujin; PAGE 7

* ORDER BLACK THIGH-HIGH SOCKS
* SHOP FOR CROT WIG AND ORDER ASAP

FRI

- get gold hemming ribbon from Law's
- get red zipper from Beverly's
- get small square of velcro
- look for small gold colored circles/buttons
- finish cutting sword base
- begin applying clay

SAT + SUN

- contact more internship pple
- look into De Anza summer classes
- email portfolio to Yvo
- begin concept design for Art333 clients
- DO MAJOR WORK FOR CROW ILLUSTRATION
- begin studying for photo midterm

JUST HERE TO LIST THE WORK I HAVE TO DO AND SHOW OFF MY DONNY ICON :D

- study for cultural anthropology midterm; Tuesday
- sketch Powerhouse Project exhibit idea; Tuesday
- MORE COVER LETTERS
- MORE INTERNSHIPS
- Bleach doujinshi
- Katz costume (dress portion)

- ACQUIRE PHOTOGRAPHY TEXTBOOK

4.0

FOUR POINT OH

FOUR CLASSES, FOUR A'S

FUCK YES


ASI;EJOAS2V9H HOW THE HELL-- I TOTALLY GOT A C ON THAT DESIGN HISTORY FINAL HOW ON EARTH

I've never even gotten this in HIGH SCHOOL. o___o MY HARD WORK PAYS OFF. THERE IS A GOD. THERE IS JOY AND LOVE AND HOPE IN THE WORLD.

I'M GOING TO HAVE COFFEE WITH MEG, AND GO TO BARNES AND NOBLES, AND HAVE A FUCKING AWESOME DAY, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Okay. I'm in the library. I've got my entire sprawl spread out in front of me: laptop, tablet, thermos with home-made mocha, salad for lunch, notes binder, textbook, even my doujinshi pages and Katz jacket fabric for potential small-breaktime purposes.

The sun is out, the patch of sky outside the window is cloudless and blue, the music on fellow laptop users' iTunes is GREAT (this guy has a MOTHERLOAD of Broken Social Scene I LOVE him).

And I can't... I can't focus. I came to school, brought all my crap to the bloody library so I can STUDY goddammit.

I blame it on getting no real sleep last night, then proceeding to exercise myself to oblivion in the gym at 7am. What kind of CRAZY PERSON does shit like this? Oh, right, ME.

Okay that's enough of being distracted. Time to pound this chapter of psych notes into my head, so I can force down some design history into my system by lunch, before locking myself up in the studio and painting my 2nd self-portrait.

Warning: GARGANTUAN post ahead.

This weekend had been a million different things, marked by spurts of extreme awesome, extreme joy, extreme craziness, extreme exhaustion, and extreme stress.

Currently, extreme delicious, as I finish up my turkey and zucchini spaghetti with marinara sauce. Seeing as how all I've had today was a huge mug of coffee, 1 girl scout cookie, 16 wheat thins, 1 double cheeseburger and a grapefruit, my modest little culinary concoction tastes like heaven.

So does sitting here (yes, it tastes like heaven. And smells like heaven, and sounds and feels like heaven), having a few beautiful moments to sit and idle and enjoy food and not be productive, listening to UVERworld's fantastic new album, feeling... kind of happy. In that tired way that will hurtle headlong into extreme fatigue if I don't catch myself.

Today somehow managed to work out much better than I'd foreseen. Then again, anything would've worked out much better than I'd foreseen last night at 3am, when it really did feel like the world was crashing down on top of me. (I shan't go into technical details, cuz technical details are boring. Just imagine, if you've ever used InDesign, the worst possible thing that could happen when working on a 50-page book project in InDesign.) If the previous post was a source of alarm to anyone, I apologize.

But I was able to rectify the problem this morning, and during mac lab hours today I was able to print out 95% of my process book, final project for the class that'd become the bane of my life and the sole origin of all my misery this quarter. And thus I felt I was entitled all the time I need for my first non-halfassed LJ post in godknowshowlong.

Before I get into an lj-cut, I want to thank everyone who replied my compliments meme post (yes I bolded it so you'd HAVE to catch it in that behemoth block of text). Some of you I'd never ever expected to hear from, and all of you took a moment to pause in your f-list to do something nice for me. It had me swimming in love and joy, and especially after having come home on Friday after the feast of awesome that is 300, I thought I'd pass out. Thank you all so, so much.

Special thanks to:

aatash Just for talking to me everyday without fail, keeping me company online and keeping me tethered to the realm of awesome and sane and happy instead of freefalling into loneliness and absolute misery. I can't do without you. HURRY OVER TO SAN DIEGO. ♥

naoekun For being an inspiration to work harder. True, I had set and worked for higher goals this quarter out of my own personal growth, but your influence gave my motivation the push to go farther, still farther. Thank you for your company and text messages and late night academic commiserating. ;D

nekomiao For reminding me how much I miss talking to you. For brightening up dark, late nights with your enthusiasm and exuberance. For making me grin and laugh and become instantly lighthearted no matter what you talk about. Keep tab on that IOU, cuz you never know if we may meet one day. X3 In the meantime, just imagine how a Sexy Seme Squish would feel like. *SEXY SEME SQUISH*

One last thing before the art. WATCH 300, GOOD PEOPLE. SPEC-FUCKING-TACULAR. SPARTANS ARE MUTHAFUCKIN BADASSES. I'LL RAVE MORE WHEN I'M FEELING MORE COHERENT.

( 'Omg is she DONE? FINALLY. God just gimme what I'm here for so I can leave.' XD )

- Bleach doujin page 4
- handsew Katz jacket sleeve
- READY KATZ DRESS FABRIC

MONDAY:

- design history review sheet #1
- begin head painting #2

TUESDAY:

- finish psych reading + review chpt 3
- design history review sheet #2, #3
- psych reading + review chpt 11

WEDNESDAY:

- PAY CREDIT BILL
- go to school at 9
- get batteries
- FINISH HEAD PAINTING #2
- PAINTING CRIT AT 1:00PM
- take photos of head paintings

- HAIRCUT

- CALL MOM
- CALL FAITH

- secure a ride, or BUY TICKETS FROM AMTRAK;
25% OFF for Student Advantage members till MARCH 31

- dinner at Margies!
- design history review sheet #4
- psych reading + review chpt 12

THURSDAY:

- TORRENT FOR HYD2 FINAL EPISODE

- return books
- collect process book from Katie's office from 12-1

- psych supplementary website review
- PSYCH FINAL 10:10 - 11:30

- design history lecture notes review
- DESIGN HISTORY FINAL 1:10-3:00

- collect all graded artwork
- HYD2 marathon with Nicole

- dinner at Tsurugi's with Mi-ne!

Mostly for myself, to keep track of things and put stuff in perspective/order.

Extracurricular Responsibilities

- commissions; 6-8 remaining
- 5pkbc Bleach Fanworks Anthology doujin; pages due APRIL 6
- cosplay; MAY 25
--- Katz; jacket, dress, sword, sheath
--- Millay; uniform blazer
--- Yoruichi; orange jacket
- internships; resume, portfolio

Upcoming School Projects

- Symbology promo brochure comp MARCH 8
- self-portrait oil painting; 1 in-class, 1 homework, MARCH 13/15
- design history poster; MARCH 14
- all phase 2 + process book digital files; MARCH 14
- phase 2 FINAL SET + 2 applications + brochure; MARCH 15
--- flush mount 11x17 x2
--- flush mount 8.5x11 x2
--- print brochure x2
- process book for Symbology; x2, MARCH 15

I'M ALIVE, but just barely. And just barely free enough to make a brief post.

The past 2 weeks or so has been this huge rolling, fast ball of Really Awesome, Really Busy, Really Really Stressful, and a bunch of other trace elements, all the stuff I'd normally experience over about a month compressed into half the time. It's a bit like sensory overload. I'd have little, scattered episodes of delight where something unexpected and great happens that sends me soaring, immediately before/after something that yanks me back down to things that have deadlines and need getting done. You could probably die of swings like that when you've had too many of them. I'm pretty sure of it.

I won't go into detail of my current academic scene. Just that one big phase in my current Symbology assignment had me going without sleep for 3 days in the same week, 2 of them consecutive. I didn't know I could do that, but I stand corrected. 8D At various points there was also one research paper and 2 midterms. Talking to aatash and naoekun daily has made this small saga of Academic Hell more than simply bearable, and I love them dearly for that. ♥

I've also been on my Cereal-and-Miso/Salad Diet since the beginning of this month. I changed my eating "cycle" to follow a strict schedule of cereal for breakfast, a home-made turkey sandwich for lunch and miso soup or salad for dinner, depending on the day of the week. (Well okay, the schedule really only runs Sunday to Thursday of every week, cuz I'd make other foods during the weekend so I don't die from lack of variety.)

I'm pleased to say, I think I'm beginning to see some results. =D We don't have a scale, but I was able to "measure" my weight-loss today when I fit comfortably in my pair of khaki cargos (which I've had since 9th grade) which I had stopped being able to wear a year ago. I was omfg SO HAPPY. Now that it's apparently working I'm TOTALLY going to rock this diet and follow through with it.

Will post lists of Extracurricular Creative Responsibilities and Upcoming Projects pretty soon, and hopefully I'll be able to spruce it up a little with photos/scans so it isn't totally boring.

Random: LOL what a fitting song. My playlist loves me XDD

Spending hours and hours talking to friends deep into the night has got to be the awesomest way to mess up up your painstakingly planned schedule that you've stuck to so diligently up til then. The repercussions are totally worth it. XD 'Sides, I'm a college student. Unforseen changes and furious curveballs? No problem. For the most part.

Hi. I'm lonesome, overworked, miserable and stressed out of my fucking mind. I love how all my art teachers decided to screw me over at the exact same time.

Tera Galanti: We're going to paint 3 oil still-lifes in one week!

Katie McCormick: I EXPECT 10 THUMBNAILS FOR EACH OF YOUR 6 EMBLEM IDEAS, TWO REFINED DESIGNS PER IDEA, ONE B/W AND ONE COLOR VERSION PER DESIGN (6x2x2 -THAT'S RIGHT- 24, BITCHES) BECAUSE YOU'RE ALL LAZY ASSFUCKS WHO DIDN'T DO JACKSHIT ALL OF LAST WEEK.

Katie McCormick: Also, there's a design history midterm on Monday. HAVE FUN GUYS~

Tera Galanti is secretly sadistic. I'm sure of it. It's the nice ones you gotta watch out for, I've always known. And Katie didn't actually say all of that, cuz she's mostly chill-out and laid-back, but in essence she meant it. We as a class have finally driven Katie into Berserker Slave Driver Mode. THIS'LL TEACH YOU TO DO YOUR FRICKEN WORK, ASSHOLES.

OKAY SO, I finished the Big Killer Final today, in Econ, and I get to pretend until tomorrow night that this is my last final (it isn't). Therefore I'm going to be up till as late as I can humanly manage, before the rebound strikes, wherein my body remembers at some point that it's running on 2.5 hours of sleep.

Before I get down to The Dump, proper, a shout-out to hp5freak: I've received your scarf! And card! (Quite a few days ago, in fact. In return for your speedy gift I must and will mail out your request tomorrow!) Thank you so, so much! Getting the box and opening it totally made my day, and I've been wearing it to school nearly everyday now. What great timing! Just as things began to get really cold down here. XD ( The following photos will attest to my scarf-love. )

Counting my blessings, of which there has been numerous. nekomiao! Remember that watch you got me? That watch of orange Timberland awesomeness and love? I've been wearing it! Like, about damn time. My dad finally remembered to get the batteries replaced for me *lol* I adore it so much. ( Watch me show it off woot woot. )

That said, I don't have much time, since I've got about a dozen more things that I need/want to do. So I'm just gonna dump-and-run. Be warned though, it's a COLOSSAL dump.

( Ready? GO! )

Now, on to more of those X'mas requests/gifts/cards. Sweet Jesus.

My first sushi meal in 4 months, and it upset my stomach. XDDD Oh well, it was worth it.

Kay, back to Philosophy.

FREEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOMMMMM

[/Mel Gibson]

Not from Academia completely, but from any academic work I have to do for the next 2 weeks, since I just finished my final poster project, and there are no more midterms for my 4 lecture classes till finals.

recounted, here I come!! naoekun, let's HIT IT, let's HIT IT HARD.

I'm so frequently tired and miserable that I feel little to no inclination to draw, watch anime or make conversation. I used to enjoy doing those things. Now the only things that make me happy are our rabbit, and Wind Waker.

Fucking a;sefjwoeru9 this quarter needs to end NOOWWWWWWW.

So, my housemates and I are getting a HOUSEHOLD PET! And it is time for me to employ the assistance of the good folks on LJ to get him christened. Pet in question is a male grey dwarf rabbit. Help me out, guys!

My own list of possibilities:

Tsukasa (.hack//Sign)
Yuuta (Honey and Clover)
Hagu (...Honey and Clover yes she's a girl but it's a cute name shutup)
Taro (Disgaea 2)
Ayato (RahXephon)

Yes they're all anime/game characters with grey hair. I have no creativity. SO HELP PLZ? Names in English, Japanese, exotic unheard-of languages, ANYTHING. We're totally out of ideas here.

Honest, I'll post art or something, sometime. Cuz I do have some, contrary to what you might be thinking since I'm taking 19 quarter units of doom.

...I really, really have to finish that HP art request. It's been, what, 1 and a half months? x__X;

But honestly, it has become so that anything other than watching stuff on TV/comp and playing Wind Waker is too much pain and work (on top of, y'know, everything else I have to do. Like academic stuff). It's quite terrible. And I've felt like shit on and off since last Monday, thanks to too little sleep and too many midterms. In all I've had 5 of them, and many, many Yuban Dark Roasts inbetween, credit of Rochelle's new, godly coffee maker.

I've also had numerous dealings with asstarded guy friends who lack the basic ability to organize events properly in order to leave a decent time cushion between the finalizing of plans and the actualizing of plans. Though, despite the frequent exasperation and tension that arises, I find myself time and again really appreciating their presence during said events. I really needed that barbecue we had last night, and it went smashingly despite the not-quite-painless planning that came before.

We were also harassed by 2 Mormon missionaries (the same ones Tyler encountered last year. They're so stalking him), but unfazed. Mostly. Michelle, resident Frosh, wasn't quite acquainted with the proper way of dealing with Mormon missionaries, which is to keep nodding and agreeing until they've spun themselves dry, after which they'd just slink away in search of new victims to terrorize. The trick is to not give them fodder to spawn new, more twisted arguments off of. My way of dealing with it is to actively evade them. Don't even let them corner you, period. So I kept skirting about, hissing harsh whispers of "HIDE ME" to friends and ducking behind them, and wishing that Michelle would, just, God, wrap it up already plzkthx. And Michelle, brave, determined Michelle, finally got fed up after about half an hour. The missionaries left, and peace settled back on the picnic table.

...*lol* I like how, instead of sleeping, I waste time by waxing longwinded accounts over pesky, pestering missionaries at 2am. Kay, y'know what it's time for? It's time for some FOTOZPAM.

( Fun Fotoz from the beginning of the quarter. Before all things went to shit. )

I still need to take pictures of the house. ~__~ And yes, I do in fact still listen to Hanson, and I am in fact excited about their documentary film which was selected to enter the Hollywood Film Festival. GTFO. Go make fun of some other band.

KAY, SO, ABOUT THAT SLEEP. *goes to pass out*